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/i feel/.../weird/i want to laugh or cry or scream or jump from the highest mountain straight down/while i say i nothing adam/i feel unfinished/there/s so much i wanna say to him that i cannot/cannot because nothing will come out when i open my mouth to say them/but i no longer wish him ill/though for the last month i did/i hope he has a happy life/i hope he moves on and i don/t mind with who/he deserves any lady who will be good to him/so all done done done/good bye and good luck adam/and merry christmas/.../
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[09 Dec 2009|02:12pm] |
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/thanks to the final truth and some wise words from alex/i no longer feel guilty about the pain i have caused this year/it was eating me up inside/it was poisoning my soul/and now it is gone/after being mad/so mad i wanted to spit and cry and punch and die/excuse the rhyming/it is all gone/i no longer feel guilty/adam slept with amelia/we broke up/adam slept with samantha/then lied about it/so i hated adam and samantha for a while/coxy said i had no reason to hate adam seeing as we weren/t together/he said i should just hate samantha/but adam lied to my face about it/both of them did/he told me every day til a few weeks ago that he still loved me/and i guess i was being a bitch/like the ex girlfriend in spaced was/not wanting tim but liking that he was pining for her/but on the antioch weekend/me and him were making serious moves to something real again/maybe we would/.../but i don/t know/we were definately gonna get through the whole thing as friends/and this came out/and i was mad/and now i/m not/i am done/it/s all over/i can guiltfree move on/no more dwelling on the past/i have to give him back a lot of stuff but no more dwelling on the past/!/he is a lying cheater but that/s ok/it no longer affects me/and she is an std ridden ho who has always wanted what i had/has a yeast infection and is the most awful/uncaring human being in the world/and i am better off without her/adam asked me after i found out if i wanted to lose two friends who care about me and miss me like crazy/and you know what/?/they aren/t friends/they are nothing to me/and my moral superiority rocks/!/samantha is disgusting and everyone knows it/revenge felt good/except in concern to adam/i felt bad/so no i/m just bagging out samatha/filthy slutbag yeasty ho/anyway all updated/hoo/-/RAY/!/
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[11 Nov 2009|10:26pm] |
/i/m never gonna understand this/
/i/m never gonna let it be/
/i just can/t understand this aged plan/
/it/s obselete/
/how could you recognise and cherish hysteric fairy tales/?/
/they/ve come to life/
/now sit by and listen/.../
/the whole world wails/
/i feel as though i/ve been abducted/
/or maybe i am just misplaced/
/as i watch these rash hysterics lay to waste the human race/
/just ask them if the sky will open and save us from the truth/
/they say that they/d leave today just without/
/without you/
/is this one big joke/?/
/i can only hope/
/say your prayers/they/re the final punchline/
/i don/t see the love below or above/
/i see you/re scared/
/well i feel fine/
/oh please believe/i/m doing just fine/
/for what/s deceased i shall never grieve/
/just let your faith die/
/i feel i have been abandoned/
/i alone seem to see disgrace as i watch these mad dogmatics govern our entire race/
/don/t tell them you can walk on water/or they may drink your blood/
/why live for pain in the name of love/?/
/how is it divince when it/s a flawed design/?/
/fill the cracks with faith i can/t find/
/screaming for pure love you venerate delusion based in hate/
/bleeding from pure love for this i pray/:/we/ve got to shake the faith/
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| /poisoned hearts will never change/.../ |
[11 Nov 2009|09:58pm] |
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/darling/i want to destroy you/.../ |
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/pull the top down/
/use your knees to drive/
/i/ll make it worth your while/
/just let me taste the sky/
/you pressed your mouth on mine/
/and fed me a star/
/then said//we never can truly know who we are//
/with the lights out and the night inside/
/the borken radio was playing suicide/
/i felt myself falling/
/i confessed to you//i saw a body//
/you said you/d seen a few/
/this night has only just begun/
/if there/s discretion that you/ve not abandoned now/s the time/
/we/ll burn to best the morning/s son/
/go grab your bag/
/i/ll bring the gun/
/keep the top down/
/use your knees to drive/
/i/ll hide these words/
/they/re only yours to find/
/you pressed your mouth on mine and said they/d call us stars/
/you said//we never can truly know who we are//
/everything was burning bright/
/everyone was frightened/
/you said stay strong/
/everybody knowing that what we/d invited still remains when we/re gone/
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| /why can/t i forget/?/did i lose everything/?/ |
[30 Oct 2009|06:57am] |
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/devil in the details/placebo/ |
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/sew this up with threads of reason and regret/
/so i will not forget/i will not forget/
/how this felt one year six months ago/
/i know i cannot forget/i cannot forget/
/i/m falling into memories of you and things we used to do/
/follow me there/
/a beautiful somewhere/
/a place that i can share with you/
/i can tell that you don/t know me anymore/
/it/s easy to forget/sometimes we just forget/
/and being on this road is anything but sure/
/maybe we/ll forget/i hope we don/t forget/
/i/m falling into memories of you and things we used to do/
/follow me there/
/a beautiful somewhere/
/a place that i can share with you/
/so many nights/legs tangled tight/
/wrap me up in a dream with you/
/close off these eyes/try not to cry/
/all that i/ve got to pull me through is memories of you/
/memories of you/
/memories of you/
/memories of you/
/i/m falling into memories of you and things we used to do/
/follow me there/
/a beautiful somewhere/
/a place that we can share/
/falling into memories of you and things we used to do/
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| /i saw a body/you said you/d seen a few/.../ |
[29 Oct 2009|10:36pm] |
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/the broken radio was playing suicide/.../ |
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/were you dying to go/?/
/you just looked so exposed/demure through the dark dancing lights/
/i glided by/
/i can/t deny that the shadows betrayed you and i on that night/
oh/i must confess i am overdressed/
/are you not impressed/?/
darling i want to/
/i/ll confess this too/must you know the truth/this is all for you/
/darling i want to destroy you/
/as you reached for my hand/did you then understand/?/
/it was i who would lead you that night/
/when you begged to know i was glad to show that i needn't be scared/either way i still bite/
/so here/s the final scene when i finally come clean/
/i/ve watched you for years/
/and here/s my favourite part/
/where you beg for my heart and i disappear/.../
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| /i cannot breathe/.../ |
[29 Oct 2009|07:34pm] |
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/i/ve been faking for you every sign of life/i died/.../ |
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/oh my story is not the oldest of it/s kind/
/i was too touched to see you clearly/
/far too young to realise i had loved so dearly you/
/who/s world i had designed/
/but the sweet smoke came with mirrors and it brought tears to my wide eyes/
/dying just to see you/.../
/dying since i misconstrued your blue heart/black eyes/feigning falling/
/words i won/t forget/
/i died right when i saw you while you shared that cigarette/
/oh i saw you every time i closed my eyes/
/in the Hughes film i had scored/produced and starred in/in my mind/
/i could recite you/well i/d written every line/../
/but you strayed far from my flawless script on which i/d spent a lifetime/
/falling over dead/
/dying since i/d misread your blue heart/black eyes/feigning falling/
/words i won/t forget/
/i died right when i saw you while you shared that cigarette/
/before you came what was your name/?/
/did you look like me/?/
/no one/s from here/no one my dear/not even the trees/
/so change your name/just keep your face/
/we/re temporary anyway/
/before you came we played this game in our masquerade/
/flash/flash/car crash/
/we/re no fixtures/
/quick now/quick take our picture/!/
/what was your past/?/
/when was the last time you recall someone you knew who asked nothing of you/?/
/so lose your past/
/i/m sure you/ll find it/s in the way all the time/
/before you/re through you/re someone who looks alot like you/
/we can/t remember the seasons/
/we chant in the manmade snow/
/we can/t recall the feelings we cannot show/
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[29 Oct 2009|06:10am] |
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/turn around bright eyes/ |
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/oh my god/oh my god/oh my god/
/my computer just deleted my absolute bitch of a final essay/
/and not just a final essay for a subject but a final essay full stop/a final essay ever for uni/and it/s all gone/all gone/
/shit/
/i rang adam though/at 5/40/am in the morning/duh/am/
/he totally answered and helped me out/trying to recover it/
/that hurts almost more/he was such a good guy about it/
/he went through every option/he got out of bed/
/and after all i/ve done to him he picked up the phone/after everything that/s happened he still helped me/
/i am such a fucking bitch/
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| /oh what useless tools ourselves/.../ |
[29 Oct 2009|03:00am] |
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/we finally had it figured out that we had truly missed the boat/.../ |
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/it/s you that i adore/
/you will always be my whore/
/you/ll be the mother to my child/
/and a child to my heart/
/we must never be apart/
/we must never be apart/
/lovely girl you/re the beauty in my world/
/without you there aren/t reasons left to find/
/and i/ll pull your crooked teeth/
/you/ll be perfect just like me/
/you/ll be a lover in my bed/
/and a gun to my head/
/we must never be apart/
/we must never be apart/
/lovely girl you/re the murder in my world/
/dressing coffins for the souls i/ve left to die/
/drinking mercury/
/to the mystery of all that you should left behind/
/in time/
/in you i see dirty/
/in you i count stars/
/in you i feel so pretty/
/in you i taste god/
/in you i feel so hungry/
/in you i crash cars/
/we must never be apart/
/drinking mercury/
/to the mystery of all that you should ever seem to find/
/lovely girl you/re the murder in my world/
/dressing coffins for the souls i/ve left behind/
/in time/
/we must never be apart/
/and you/ll always be my whore/
/cause you/re the one that i adore/
/and i/ll pull your crooked teeth/
/you/ll be perfect just like me/
/in you i feel so dirty/
/in you i crash cars/
/in you i feel so pretty/
/in you i taste god/
/we must never be apart/
/i said earlier that i almost hate adam/
/it/s a lie/
/i could never hate him/
/only love him/
/he was my best friend/
/my best lover/
/my only refuge in times of bad/
/and the hole in my heart will always ache for him/
/maybe that isn/t fair to be saying all this/
/but it/s the truth/
/i/ll always wonder if we could/ve made it work/
/if we would have ended up happily together forever/
/if he would have fathered my children/
/if he would/ve held my hand when i was dying/
/if he/d be true to me forever/
/that last part didn/t work out/
/but i still miss him/
/i still love him/
/i wish we could find some semblance of normality instead of making each other hurt so bad/
/why am i this awful person/?/
/why couldn/t god have made me good/?/
/or did he and i just didn/t realise/?/
/i took the bad path and look where i wound up/
/my life in ruins/
/my heart broken and bleeding/
/adam/
/sometimes he/s all i want/
/just for him to hold me/
/whisper in my ear that everything was going to be all right/
/for him to love me so hard/so good/
/but i don/t miss that so much/
/what i miss is the love he had for me emmanating off him/
/keeping me warm and safe/
/god i hate myself/
/but i don/t hate adam/
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| /purity was invented to make the tainted/and we wish every day we didn/t/.../ |
[29 Oct 2009|01:39am] |
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/crash love/.../ |
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/don/t move/
/don/t do anything/
/what we captured got away/slipped from us/
/don/t speak/
/don/t say anything/
/they/ve been recording all we say for years now/
/you won/t see them right away/
/but you/ll hear them singing/
/hold me closely now/
/but don/t say anything/
/they/ve come to take me away and won/t leave until i/m gone/
/don/t feel/
/don/t love anything/
/love attracts all those who taint the cherished/
/don/t try to change anything/
/nothing pure can ever stay/
/they/ll say //relax you/ll be fine///
/all we love goes away/
/they/ll take all you let them find/.../
/it was mine/
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[28 Oct 2009|09:20pm] |
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/WHY LIVE FOR PAIN IN THE NAME OF LOVE/?/
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[28 Oct 2009|09:07pm] |
/i come quietly/
/silent entities can lack a certain weight when unseen/
/do they speak of me/?/
/my voice left with the breeze that whispered//you should flee or you shall be seen//
/i/d die if you only met my eyes/
/before you pass by/will you pause to break my heart/?/
/i am everywhere/
/everywhere but here/
/for here is where you grace the nameless/
/were i not so weak/could i even speak/
/i/d warn you that you should leave before you/re seen with me/
/there is nothing to me/
/there is nothing though there was a time i had felt elation before all sensation died/
/i cannot breathe/
/i can/t deny that i/ve been feigning/for you/every vital sign defied/
/this means nothing to me/
/this means nothing so spare me the lies/
/i deny you sympathy just as i have been denied/
/i cannot breathe/
/i can/t deny that i/ve been faking/for you/every sign of life/
/i died for the last lie/and the heartbreak for the first time/i could not take til i made you cry/
/this is what you taught me/
/this is what you taught/-/and i learned well/-/to recognise that feeling can easily be dispelled/
/show me your wounds/i/m bored with mine/
/nothing is new/
/don/t despair/i rarely cry/
/oh my dear/please dry your tears/
/who could harm you/?/
/to hurt you is to be dispised/as i/d love to/.../
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| /i/d tear the sun in three/to light up your eyes/.../ |
[28 Oct 2009|08:38pm] |
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/torch song//afi// |
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/i saw you/
/angels came to light your path/
/i heard you/
/keep their wings pressed under glass/
/now am i/
/so enthralled that i might die/?/
/i saw you/
/sweetly smile/and say //do try///
/anything/
/i/d tear out my eyes for you/my dear/
/anything/
/to see everything that you do/
/i saw you/
/so bereft/so pale and weak/
/when i looked/
/through you and i declined to speak/
/i won/t say/
/anything/
/i/d dear out my eyes for you my dear/
/anything/
/to see everything that you do/
/i/d do anything/
/i/ll tear out my soul for you/my dear/
/oh my dear/anything/
/to feel everything as you do/
/leave me/
/leave me to grieve that nothing/s lost/
/leave me/
/but when you leave/
/know nothing/s lost/
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| /there/s a body in the lake/.../ |
[28 Oct 2009|06:40pm] |
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/time will help us through/but it doesn/t have the time/ |
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/kitty came back home from on the island/
/but kitty came on home without a name/
/she and me/s a history of violence/
/but i long and burn to touch her just the same/
/so we both can both can speak in tongues/
/so we both can both can speak in tongues/
/every single sense in me is heightened/
/there/s nothing left inside to rearrange/
/like a slave to history and science/
/i long/I burn to touch you just the same/
/so we both can both can speak in tongues/
/so we both can both can speak in tongues/
/until the universe is done/
/and the course of time has run/
/so we both can both can speak in tongues/
/don/t let them have their way/
/don/t let them have their way/
/you/re beautiful and so blasé/
/so please don/t let them have their way/
/don/t fall back into the decay/
/there is no law we must obey/
/so please don/t let them have their way/
/don/t give in to yesterday/
/we can build a new tomorrow/today/
/we can build a new tomorrow/today/
/we can build a new tomorrow/today/
/we can build a new tomorrow/today/
/everything i touch turns to shit/
/why can't i be beautiful and so blasé/?/
/why must the weight of the world come crashing down around my shoulders/?/
/why am i so goddamn emotional/?/
i hate me/everything about me/../
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| /tell me baby/where did i go wrong/?/ |
[26 Oct 2009|06:13am] |
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/nothing compares 2U/ |
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/remember me when you/re the one who/s silver screen/
/remember me when you/re the one you always dreamed/
/remember me when everyone/s noses start to bleed/
/remember me/special needs/
/just 19 and suckers dream/i guess i thought you had the flavour/
/just 19 and dream obscene/with six months off for bad behaviour/
/remember me when you clinch your movie deal/
/and think of me stuck in my chair that has four wheels/
/remember me through flash photography and screams/
/remember me/special dreams/
/remember me/.../
/this is the moment/malaise/THE epidemic that spreads itself/The party is finished/one brings down the thoughts that freeze the reason/eyelids lowered/gray face/arise the ghosts of our bed/one opens the loquet of the gate of the slum that one calls house/
/protect me from what i want/protect me from what i want/protect me from what i want/protect me/protect me/
/are we the destiny/toys remind you of the divine mind/-/blowing moments/burst to in the morning/and now we are all alone/lost the dreams to like itself/the time where one nothing had done/it remains ourselves all a life to cry/
/and now we are all alone/
/protege moi/protege moi/.../
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[26 Oct 2009|01:34am] |
/here/sleep/at the bottom of hell/
/your time has come to pick the road/
/you walk in this tale/
/turning/as a coward you/ve earned/
/through sickness/in health/is only won/
/now go and bite your tongue/
/you/re just of the worst of me/
/with the hope they/ll understand/
/no/they know you/re just a boy/
/so grow up and be a man/
/little baby/oh/kick and you scream/you whine/
/victims pay the price eventually/
/the curse that sees your lie/
/you/ve got nothing to prove/stay afraid/
/young brother/you/ve got nothing to prove/
/your answer is in there/just stare down the barrel/
/this sincerest apologies/won/t write you out of this one/
/tonight/you/ll find the right in the pull of the trigger/
/now bite/young fools/don/t cry anymore/
/fear slips inside your stomach/it swells/
/a torn boy alone in need of fix/
/in the preach that kills the itch/
/for too long/this little baby/s cried on/
/tomorrow we/ll sing the words in song/
/of a time where glad/s unknown/
/you/re just of the worst of me/
/with the hope they/ll understand/
/no/they know you/re just a boy/
/so grow up and be that man/
/little baby/oh/kick and you scream/you whine/
/victims pay the price eventually/
/the curse that sees your lie/lie/
/you/ve got nothing to prove/stay afraid/
/young brother/you/ve got nothing to prove/
/your answer is in there/just stare down the barrel/
/this sincerest apologies/won/t write you out of this one/
/tonight/you/ll find the right in the pull of the trigger/
/now bite/young fool don/t cry/
/mother superior/come catch the rabbit/
/he runs/my how you/ve gone/
/you/re frightened of leaving this/
/truly gone fishing/
/go fetch your gun/
/your answer is in there/just stare down the barrel/
/this sincerest apologies won/t write you out of this one/
/tonight/you/ll find the right in the pull of the trigger/
/now bite/young fools/don/t cry/oh/not anymore/
/don/t cry/boy/not anymore/don/t cry/boy/not anymore/don/t cry/boy/
/you/re sick to the stomach/just pull out the knife/oh no/
/don/t cry/boy/not anymore/don/t cry/boy/not anymore/
/don/t cry/boy/not anymore/
/you/re sick to the stomach/just pull out the knife/oh no/
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| /hell has no room for my crimes/.../ |
[26 Oct 2009|12:46am] |
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/bye bye world/raise your hands high/is there no world for tomorrow/?/ |
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/i fed the clues of a lost day killed in motion/
/but i thought of it so like there/s no other way it could/ve been done/
/will they size my fit/ /for a puzzle i wish not to play a part in it/
/a heart stained in hate/a feeling of fear will play circles/
/but you/you were my favourite/
/but you/you know/you were my favorite/
/i severed my ties to shroud this body under the streets of this city/
/and wait for the day when i am summoned to walk across the face/
/well/slowly but clearer now/in visions that play and plague memories/
/i loved them with all as the son should to mother and father/
/but you/you were my favourite/
/but you/you know/you were my favourite/
/would i walk through the door/shedding the light of all life/?/
/with the rise and reform/would i come as before/?/
/pray you/re not the only one/
/pray you/re not the only/.../
/if given mistakes/would i take them back/?/
/if erasing them could/if erasing them would/
/but would they be the words that i would say/?/
/your face and a door between/
/i/ve parted three ways/
/for you/the newo that I love/.../love/.../
/did you ever really know before my face shamed to break/?/
/did you ever really know before my mind scared to think/?/
/did you ever really know before my name son to these/?/
/did you/did you/did you come clean in the end from the start/?/
/dear ambellina/the Prise wishes you to watch over me/
/dear ambellina/the Prise wishes you to watch over me/
/i fought the decisions that call and lost/
/my mark has the revelant piece in this/
/i will come reformed/
/in short/for the murders of those i court/
/i bless the hour that holds your fall/
/i will kill you all/!/!/
/i will call you out from shelter//i will call you out///
/burn your wings you/ll know no better//burn your wings///
/i will call you out from shelter//I will call you out///
/burn your wings and learn their letters//burn your wings///
/i will call you out from shelter//dear ambellina/the Prise wishes you to watch over me///
/burn your wings you/ll know no better//burn your wings///
/i will call you out from shelter//dear Ambellina/...////i will call you out//
/burn your wings and learn their letters//...to watch over me//
/i crush/
/i burn/
/i destroy/
/i ruin/
/i eliminate/
/the happiness/hope and love of those aorund me/
/i cannot hang onto friends/
/i push them away/
/and to add salt to the wound i ensure they never return with harsh words/
/i hate myself so much/
/i/m sorry elyse/
/but you were destroying me/
/by cutting negativity out of my life i ensure it remains/
/i break everything around me into tiny pieces/unfixable/
/this is not the way i want to be/
/but as a life ruiner/in particular my own/
/this is the way i am/the way i have to be/
/i just want to be loved truly/
/no strings/no betrayals/nothing that hurts my soul/
/why does everyone abandon me/?/
/why did he sleep with my alleged friend/?/
/why did he break down when i said i couldn/t handle that fact/?/
/why does everyone treat me like shit when i am already as low as i can get/treating me like the bad guy/blaming me/hating me/i don/t want to be here anymore/.../
/strange dear/but true dear/
/when i/m close to you/dear/
/the stars fill the sky/
/so in love with you am i/
/even without you/
/my arms fold about you/
/you know darling why/
/so in love with you am i/
/in love with the night mysterious/
/the night when you first were there/
/in love with my joy delirious/
/when i knew that you could care/
/so taunt me/and hurt me/
/deceive me/desert me/
/i/m yours/till i die/...../
/so in love/..../so in love/..../
/so in love with you/my love/.../am i/..../
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[25 Oct 2009|11:41pm] |
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/justice in murder//coheed and cambria/ |
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/i feel like bastian from the neverending story/
/screaming out into the rain/
//i don/t know what to do/
//what do i have to do/?//
/i am so lost/
/i can/t sleep/
/i can/t go a day without crying/
/i feel all alone/
/i have no friends who care/
/absolutely none/
/i feel like screaming out over and over/
/i feel like punching people/
/i feel like i cannot breathe/
/i feel like there is no going back to any semblance of normality/
/i feel like the worst/most villainous person on the earth/
/i feel like i am hellbound/
/i feel guilty/
/i don/t think that i really deserve any of these emotions/
/or people treating me like the bad guy/
/i just wish that that april 5/5 years ago now/
/i should have just done it/
/i should have had the guts to just do it/
/but adam held me here/
/i barely knew him/
/i/d known him a week/
/yet there was something there/
/i can barely remember the way he made my world stop/
/i can barely remember the electric feeling of him holding me and kissing me/
/ever since amelia there was no world stoppage/
/there was no electricity/
/there was just deadness/
/i was dead inside/
/adam helped me through so much/
/he was there for me when ben died/
/no one else was/
/he was there for me when i was going through my withdrawals/
/he was there for me through so much/
/but then i think/well where was he at new years/?/
/where was he for me then/?/
/i wasn/t enough for him/
/he ripped my heart out/
/and acts like i am the worst person in the world/
/like i ruined everything/
/every potential bit of happiness for the future/
/but i don/t think this is true/
/we were so young/
/we didn/t know life outside of anything/
/we were never going to be together forever/
/yet because i knew this and he didn/t/
/because he broke my heart and i in retaliation broke his/
/i am the one who is truly alone/
/i am the one who suffers the abandonment of everyday knowing that my friends and family chose him/they abandoned me for him/there is no such thing as an impatial sympathiser in this scenario/it is only sides/
/who is on my side/?/
/me/
/and only me/
/the silence rips my soul into pieces/
/causes me such pain/
/i want to wretch and die/
/i want to jump off the tallest building and just fall into nothingness only to feel the devastating crunch of the bottom/all my bones disentegrating/
/blood seeping out my nose/mouth/eyes/ears/
/nothing distracts from this feeling/
/if a train is coming i want to throw myself in front of it/
/if a car drives past i want it to hit me with all its might/
/i don/t want to be here anymore/
/there is no escape from what i suffer/
/i cannot breathe/
/i cannot deal with anything/
/i used to think myself strong/
/but i cannot handle the crushing weight that is my loneliness/
/i hate you sometimes/
/.../
/is this the way i want to see me/?/
/please/leave your memories at the door/
/why has the world gone off and deserted me/?/
/why/there/s just no room inside these walls/
/you want it all/
/but did you want it tonight/?/
/or you go through in there/
/as you wait by the light/
/oh/can you see what you/ve been asking of me/?/
/with the turn of this knife/no/we/ll take your life/
/this scene/we/ll cry no/
/crying for mercy/
/now it/s time to pray for the end of our life/
/there will be justice in murder/
/there will be justice in murder/
/now you/ve been for me/when no other could be/
/well/i now grow old to forget all those/
/drown all sorrow/goodbye tomorrow/
/there is no worse than this curse you/ve given me/
/this new scene/it/s ending all for nought/
/i wish you the best when i/m lost to eternity/
/now/do what you will so it hurts no more/
/you want it all/but did you want it tonight/?/
/or you go through in there/as you wait by the light/
/oh/can you see what you/ve been asking of me/?/
/with the turn of this knife/no/we/ll take your life/
/this scene/we/ll cry no/
/crying for mercy/
/now it/s time to pray for the end of our life/
/there will be justice in murder/
/there will be justice in murder/
/now you/ve been for me/when no other could be/
/well/i now grow old to forget all those/
/drown all sorrow/goodbye tomorrow/
/there will be justice in murder/
/there will be justice in murder/
/now you/ve been for me/what no other could be/
/well/i now grow old to forget all those/
/drown all sorrow/goodbye tomorrow/
/there will be justice in murder/oh/no/no/
/there will be justice in murder/
/now you/ve been for me/what no other could be/
/well/i now grow old to forget all those/
/drown all sorrow/goodbye tomorrow/
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/fml/
/all i ever do is hurt people/
/i can never get it right/
/not on damn thing/
/i do things the wrong way/
/i behave the wrong way/
/i lack sensitivity/
/when i finally put myself first after all these years of putting myself last i hurt people way worse than normal/
/fmfl/
/i don/t want to do this anymore/
/i/m so empty and blank inside/
/and it/s getting easier and easier for the mask to fall back into place and me to feel absolutely nothing inside again/
/how could things have gotten so fucked up and so many people got so hurt/?/
/i am a ruiner/
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/will someone please call a surgeon/
/who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart/
/that you/re deserting for better company/
/i can/t accept that it/s over/.../
/and i will block the door like a goalie tending the net/
/in the third quarter of a tied/-/game rivalry/
/so just say how to make it right/
/and i swear i/ll do my best to comply/
/tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better/
/than making you my bride and slowly growing old together/?/
/i feel i must interject here/.../
/you/re getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself/
/with these revisions and gaps in history/
/so let me help you remember/
/i/ve made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear/
/i/ve prepared a lecture on why i have to leave/
/so please back away and let me go/
/i can/t my darling i love you so/.../
/but oh/oh/.../
/tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better/
/than making you my bride and slowly growing old together/?/
/don/t you feed me lies about some idealistic future/
/your heart won/t heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures/
/i know that i have made mistakes and i swear/
/i/ll never wrong you again/
/you/ve got allure i can/t deny/
/but you/ve had your chance so say goodbye/
/say goodbye/.../
/damn my music collection/
/stop singing how i feel/!/stop summing up my situation so perfectly/!/stop reminding me/!/
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